As a person living with anxiety and depression you get use to having things occur on a daily bases. Most of the time you go through the day and have become so accustom to feeling a certain way that you don't even NOTICE it; it becomes the norm. When you discuss how it's like living with anxiety and/or depression you discuss the bad days, not the everyday life that it affected by it because you don't realize that you are affected by it by most days. You start to notice this when you have the rare, amazing day where you feel good. You feel like you had ten cups of coffee (or energy drink for those that don't do coffee) because you are up and aware, you are not feeling down and tiered or nervous about everything. You are aware of everything going on in a different way; in a way that you aren't in your everyday life. What causes these day to occur? What do you do when they do? This is what I'm going to discuss in this post.
What causes these days to randomly occur? Honestly, I have no idea. They just happen. Perhaps I woke up that day without having a nightmare during the night. Maybe for once the chemical in my brain leveled out for a while; we all knows that having anxiety and depression is a result of a chemical imbalance so perhaps thats why. There is absolutely no way for me to understand why I felt good on these day but you know what? I don't care WHY I feel good that day I'm just going to enjoy it because chances are tomorrow I'll be back to feeling nervous, exhausted, irritable, empty and so much more.
So this leads to what do you do when they occur? You live it up!! You do all the things that you use to love but haven't felt like doing. You just do it!! You read that book that you ready 8 years ago and that you loved. Go out for a run. Ride four fourwheelers. Go hang-out with friends. Do the things that you finally feel like doing. I had one of these "jewels of a day" the other day. I ended up spending the whole afternoon, of course after I got home from work/college, outside! It has been so incredibly long since I just sat outside on the grass with my dogs. And you know what? IT felt AMAZING!! I felt good, I finally felt like myself. I wasn't tired, I wasn't nervous and I felt like me!
So even if these days are rare enjoy the days when they do occur. Enjoy the day, have fun, and be happy!!
Everyday is a day to strive to be happy, but I know for a fact that sometimes it just doesn't happen. When it's worse is when you do not even notice that everyday you feel a certain way until you have one of these amazing days. That's why I call it a rare jewel of a day because it is precious when it occurs.
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